His lips were on mine. His hands held me tight so I couldn’t run away. It was fast and intense; that’s how my first love came and left within one hour that felt like an eternity.
This one promised me the world, a life I thought I didn’t want until he painted it to me with sweet words and empty dreams that later turned into a nightmare. He was who I thought the love of my life. We women can be so naive. No, we humans are. Both guys I swore to be the love of a lifetime took with them my first times, I gave it to them. Both of them left me brokenhearted and I should say it still hurts despite the years but to them today I’m thankful. Without those heartbreaks I’d still be the same silly girl who babbled about being unbreakable, I’d be the same kind of naive proudly saying no man could get through me. I thank them because —and yes, there’s a song reference coming— it completed who I need to be. It made who I am now.
No, I’m not going crazy. Sure you are right now on a similar situation, maybe that jerk cheated on you or maybe the girl you blindly thought was your best friend turned out to be a bitch —yes, that’s what I meant. Let’s call things by their names—. Doesn’t matter if you’re a boy, a girl, a grown up…, no one can escape a broken heart.
Perhaps at this exact moment, you are a mess and you earned the right to be. Your family and friends are gonna tell you not to cry. He didn’t deserve you, she didn’t worth it but for you they did. They did deserve you from your point of you and is okay just don’t drown on it. Cry your soul out if you must, let the world crumble around you but just to stand that runny nose and red eyes up, clean the mess by yourself and be a freaking goddess —or an amazing Tony Stark, cause you know gender equality—. Actually, we all should take Tony Stark as an example, not just because he’s sexy, no way, but because this fictional superhero has gone through a hell and folks, that fella has the whole money to be happy and don’t give a shit instead he does it with that bright attitude.
Every time life hits Tony, he hits life back, he smiles and does what he does best: himself. You might catch him from scene to scene fighting some demons even though he saves the world. Demons we all have. Every time Tony managed to find a way to solve it and put himself up. If he, being the product of someone else’s imagination can, why can’t you?
Heartbreaks are horrible, it’s been some years now and I myself sense the damage inside but that’s just a good excuse to do the best out of the mess some jerk left behind —disclaimer, the jerk tag applies even if you’re a girl—. The perfect opportunity to dry those tears and shine as big and loud as you can.
Even if One Direction sang they’re gonna save your heart, darling the truth if that is a job yours to be done. Prepare for the next round cause now you’ll know a bit more, what to give and what to say and to don’t. Now that you’ve been shattered to pieces you get to open your eyes and don’t take shit from nobody —sí, dije mierda pero ya les dije también que hay que llamar las cosas por su nombre—. Now you won’t just talk about how no one plays a fool with you, no, now you know that won’t really happen but also now is when you should understand hearts are not for children to play with. You’ll know how to take care of someone else´s and how important it is to keep your promises.
For this, I beg you, do not close your heart, at least not forever. Keep it under maintenance if you want and once is done reopen and give it one more time. This time you get to know when is smart to share it and when you should take it back.
The funny thing about being broken is that you get the gift to understand how precious humans are and fragile too. You’re gonna see them in a different way and comprehend that letting someone down is not an option; now you’re not gonna hurt someone else because the funny thing of getting yourself broken is learning how to treat people with kindness.